Welcome back! Week 5 was a whirlwind.
what gets you out of bed in the morning? what inspires you? what motivates you?
I don’t really remember how I got the idea for this article. It’s been sitting in a word document full of ideas for many months now and when I was planning out articles for this summer I knew this was one I wanted to finally bring to life. Because wouldn’t it be kinda cool to see what people have to say? Wouldn’t it be cool to have a list of what gets people up in the morning – a list of inspiration and motivation and passion and drive? I think it would be. And I think this is it.
I don’t want to talk too much in this little introduction because this isn’t an article about me. It’s an article about you, about us. Working on this article has left me more motivated and more inspired than I have been in a very long time. I am blown away by the honesty and the courage that is shared in each one of these entries and I feel humbled that people shared with me and with this blog and this community. I want to thank everyone who participated in this blog post and helped to make it a reality. This quite obviously could not have been done without you and I am so grateful that you all choose to be part of this.
We are back! Week 2! With more pictures of my summer!
This wasn’t what I was going to post today. In fact, I had pretty much the opposite article planned for today. Today I was supposed to post a fun article, a lighthearted article, about a favorite brunch spot – the first in a summer series of food spotlights. But quite frankly, that article doesn’t seem to matter much right now. Right now we have something bigger to talk about.
So I watch a pretty good amount of YouTube and my favorite videos to watch are daily and weekly vlogs. I think it’s really cool to get a peek into the everyday lives of the people I follow and in the back of my mind I have always tossed around the idea that maybe, just maybe, that could be something I could do. But, it scares me. Despite having this very public platform where I feel comfortable sharing some of the intimate details of my life with you all, something about YouTube is a little daunting to me. I can’t really explain it – it just is. And maybe one day I’ll gather the confidence and the courage to take that leap, but, for now, I’ll stick to this blog.
If you spent any time around me in the final week or two of the semester you know how sad I was that sophomore year was coming to a close. This was a really good year. And even though I knew that (most) all of us would be back together on Colgate’s campus in a couple months (@seniors we will miss you), sophomore year was something special for reasons I can’t pinpoint and it was sad to think that this moment, this year, was nearly over.
When 13 Reasons Why premiered just over a year ago I had mixed feelings about it – and I wrote about them. I am a longtime fan of Jay Asher’s novel and was excited to see what it would look like to transform his words into a television series. I was also excited to see what our collective reaction would be. I’ve been asked many times what my take on 13 Reasons Why is and my response is a conflicted one. I am not going to touch on my feelings about if 13 Reasons Why romanticizes suicide or my feelings about how the series was actually shot and filmed. I really do think that 13 Reasons Why had good intentions and while difficult to watch at moments, started an important conversation and I am grateful for that. But I am disappointed in the way we reacted to it. It brought mental health and suicide to the forefront of our minds and I really think that for a moment we were maybe all a little kinder to one another. But only for a moment. It didn’t last. And I mean in all honesty who am I to say what this show should mean to people or what it should inspire people to do but, to me, to have this show take off the way it did and not have it have a lasting effect on the way we treat other people or the way we talk about suicide seems like a waste. So, as anticipation and excitement rises surrounding the release of season 2, there are a few things I really hope we will do better this time around.
The article I published just after spring break a couple of weeks ago was a compilation of pictures from throughout the week. And, if I’m being honest, when I posted that article I thought it was kind of a cop-out. Next to articles about mental health it just really didn’t seem very important. Here I am though, a mere two weeks later, posting another compilation of pictures because I have realized that …
a. pictures are important.
b. these are memories worth sharing.
Two years ago to the day I embarked on a road trip from my home in New Jersey to the White Mountains in New Hampshire and, if you know me, you know that I would do close to anything to relive this week. And so, because pictures are important and memories are worth sharing, here are a few of my favorite moments from that one week two years ago.
No matter how many times I talk about my mental health, every time I share my story it is emotional and often it is difficult. That isn’t to say it isn’t worth it – just that those moments aren’t without a thought. And, like I mentioned in a previous post, I am happy to share my story – anyone can ask. But I think for a while I thought there would be a magic number. That maybe once my pedal fast articles hit a certain number of views then I wouldn’t get so emotional. Or once I told a certain number of people then it wouldn’t be so hard to start the conversation with someone new. That once a certain amount of time had passed then it would all just be easier.
I took a momentary pause from posting last week because I was on spring break. I finally had a moment to breathe and the chance to step off colgate’s campus and back into life back home and decided that it would be a week without the blog.
Many of my friends took spring break as a chance to escape the bitter cold and snow-covered upstate new york and set off for warmer weather in places like florida, mexico, and the caribbean. I headed home to new jersey.
Going home for spring break is unlike going home for many other breaks. While most colleges have overlapping thanksgiving, winter, and summer breaks – spring break can fall at different times for everyone. Going home I had the chance to see some of my friends who happened to have time off at the same time I did, but I also had a chance to just do me for a week. I had a week free of obligation and time to invest just in myself.
I spent a lot of time in my house, and more specifically in my bed or on my couch listening to music and bouncing between various Netflix shows. I spent a lot of time at farmhouse cafe & eatery (which for those of you who know me from home should not come as too much of a surprise). I spent a lot of time with my dogs. I spent a lot of time just with myself.
And you could call that boring or sad or just me being lazy for a week. But you can also see it as a week of self-care and self-love. That is the way I like to think of it.
And so this week on the blog I just wanted to share some pictures from the week. Mostly of my dog. Occasionally of food and coffee. Mostly in black and white.
There are a few times a year when certain articles just seem more appropriate. Like it makes sense to talk about resolutions around New Years and it makes sense to talk about milestones or lessons learned around birthdays. It also makes sense to talk about self-harm in March.